Totally off the subject

I've had a request (well, actually it was said sarcastically, but I figured what the heck) to post some pictures of my puppy - Alex on here too. (It seems those who don't check MySpace feel left out and I just couldn't let this happen. So here they are :)

A little late

This is a couple weeks late (this is me at 14 weeks) - but figured I'd post it up anyways.

This is just a few weeks later - at 17 weeks!! I'm gonna be bigger than a house!!!

And we've got a live one folks!

So I had a doctor's appointment today. All is going great! Baby's heart rate measured at 152 which is well within the normal limits. The tech said that we had one active baby - everytime she would find the heartbeat with the doppler, Little Mack would move and she'd have to go searching again.

The long awaited ultrasound is now scheduled for October 2nd at 12:45pm. We will finally get to find out if we're having a boy or girl, that is if Little Mack decides to cooperate and open his/her legs for us :)

We're also set to close on our new house Oct. 5th (can we say excitement packed week or what?). We'll be moving 15-20 minutes away to Mesa - into our 4 br, 2 bath house. We're stoked!! That means my dream of being able to decorate a nursery is about to come true - YIPPEE!

So yeah - that's the latest and greatest. It's been a quiet couple of weeks as far as the baby is concerned. Not much happening, and I've been feeling well. Gotta love the second trimester :)

Dealing with my past...

Paranoia - yup, that about somes up my feelings this last week or so. Nope, nothing has happened. Baby and I are trekking along just fine. It's just this completely irrational fear that has been plaguing me lately. Without all the pregnancy symptoms (since most of them have left me now that I'm in the 2nd trimester) it's like my mind just doesn't believe I'm pregnant. Even looking down at my ever-expanding wasteline isn't proof enough that there is another life growing inside me.

I belong to another forum called Pregnancy after miscarriage and many of the women are dealing with the same issues. It's completely normal - and yet I wish there was something I could do to make the worry and fear go away. Of course - I know that once the movement and kicking starts, that'll be one source of reassurance. Another will be when I get to hear the heartbeat again. But, as always, I'm impatient and wish I could get rid of this sense of uneasiness NOW!

So, yeah - I'm sure Little McCormack is just fine and dandy. His momma just needs to take a chill pill and put her faith back where it belongs.